
"A Man can be destroyed but he cannot be Defeated. Man is not meant for Defeat." -Ernest Hemingway
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Friday, January 27, 2012
Somebody’s Mother !!

Her innocent smile with all folded skin and wrinkled face drew my attention. Seeing her, the first impression that came to my mind was that she might have lost her way! Bu I was wrong!
She started speaking in a particular local dialect that I didn’t understand. She started smiling. I smiled! She kept smiling! Aesthetically she looked beautiful and attractive! For a moment, for me, she was the finest example of a beautiful aged woman.
I was without any idea and didn’t know what to say to her. Her smile which looked so beautiful just few moments before looked annoying and bit painful. Ultimately, she fished out something from her dirty tattered rag. She showed to me a ten-rupee note. I got the hint! I did not hesitate to give her money. When I went near to her she hugged me. She almost gripped me. Honestly and truthfully, her body odour was so repelling. At once I tried to untie her hand from the grip. But I failed! There was something arresting in her hug. Was that my hypocrite act to make her feel good or was it the power of her pure love? Whatever, I could not resist myself reciprocating her filthy physical but true and natural hug! I almost became emotional.
Once again she said that I did not understand. She put her right hand above my head touching my hair softly. It felt so comforting and relaxing!
It also made me speculate if her relatives or children are aware about her ruined condition. When she needed them the most, she was moving from door to door pleading for help! All alone and begging!
I helped her coming down stairs from my quarter. I saw a local basket full of local green leafy vegetable. She hinted me to buy few bundles. I didn’t buy any as I had enough at my room. I helped lifting the basket. She touched me again and said something and walked away!
For a few moments I stood there silently. Didn’t she deserve her children’s or relatives’ care? Ironically and unfortunately, she is ignored and left at the mercy of her own fate.
She will visit someone’s house next time and beg! The saga might go on and on! Even the god will surely not come to lend his helping hand to her.
The situation also reminded me of a poem called “Somebody’s Mother’ I had read when I was a school child:
The woman was old and ragged and gray
And bent with the chill of the winter’s day.
Friday, October 21, 2011
I Lied To Him !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

“I will buy a small piece of land in Assam and will spend my rest of my life peacefully”, was his straight and effortless answer.
I was surprised. I said, “Every person desires to spend his life in one’s native place but yours is opposite. You wish to remain away from your native place. Politely he replied, “Son, I have survived enough in Manipur, in my own land, in my native place hoping that a day would come when everything will be fine but nothing changed.”
From childhood to this day, I have seen lots of changes. It is saddening to see Manipur going these way killings, rapes, murders and suffering. I feel choked in my own land. I have go through unexplainable suffering in my own land. I want to live here yet I cannot. So I no longer want to survive here.
Once, Manipur was really a beautiful state. Now I find it the ugliest. However I love her with all her ugliness. Yet, how long will I love her ugliness? I have seen innocent person turning into the most devilish individual.
I have spent my childhood, boyhood in Manipur. I became a husband and then a father in Manipur. I never wanted my children to experiences I went through but they too know the reality. I don’t know what they feel but I don’t want to remain in my own native land, he told in a single breath. I might get some piece of peace in others’ land. I want to feel the taste of peaceful ambiance so what if it has to be in others’ place? People might consider me weak, coward, or even escapist.
However don’t I have right to spend my life the way I want?” he asked. I said nothing.
Finally he asked, “Heard that Arunachal Pradesh is a Peaceful State? I said with a pride a Big YES. But today I realized I lied to him.
N:B:- I wrote this on October 11, 2011
Thursday, June 16, 2011
And Miles to Go Beofre I Sleep.....

Is mod se jaate hain
Kuchh sust qadam raste kuchh tez qadam raahe
Patthar ki haveli ko shishe ke gharaundo mein
Tinko ke nasheman tak is mod se jaate hain
Aa Is mod se jaate hain
Aandhi ki tarha ud kar ik raah guzarti hai
Sharmaati huwi koyi qadmo se utarti hai
In reshmi raaho mein ik raah to woh hogi
Tum tak jo pahonchti hai is mod se jaati hai
Is mod se jaate hain....
Ik door se aati hai paas aake palat-ti hai
Ik raah akeli si ruktii hai na chalti hai
Ye soch ke baithhi hu ik raah to woh hogi
Tum tak jo pahonchti hai is mod se jaati hai
Is mod se jaate hain....
Kuchh sust qadam raste kuchh tez qadam raahe
Patthar ki haveli ko shishe ke gharaundo mein
Tinko ke nasheman tak is mod se jaate hain
AaIs mod se jaate hain....
N:B:- These words are not mine except the Image!
Saturday, June 4, 2011
Women of the Twilight Zone

Based at Prem Nagar here, the TDMCS, which was established in May 2001, is currently working on one of its various projects, called Ajen, through which the NGO seeks to halt and reverse the spread of HIV/AIDS in Arunachal Pradesh, Ajen project manager Asha Dev informed this correspondent.
The TDMCS has so far counseled 435 female sex workers in the capital complex. Out of these, 201 have been referred to an Integrated Counseling and Testing Centre (ICTC) for regular check-up. The NGO has so far distributed 71,150 condom packets among sex workers.
Project Ajen was started in February 2008 and has completed a year since. Initially, it was very difficult to convince the sex workers to go for counseling, Dev said, since they were very reluctant, in the fear that counseling might reveal them to be HIV positive.
The NGO regularly monitors these women, provides them regular counseling, and encourages them to visit the ICTCs. On the touchy issue of AIDS, Dev said only one girl was identified as being HIV positive. However, the girl disappeared once she came to know of her status and her whereabouts remains unknown.
Speaking on condition of anonymity, some of the sex workers revealed that besides financial constraints, ‘failure in romance’ pushed them into prostitution.
One of them is a 27-year-old, who said though she was never interested in the trade, terrible need of money, coupled with a divorce from her husband, pushed her into it.
She has children to look after. Though she owns a small clothes business of her own, scanty earning from the business is not enough to keep their bodies and souls together.
She said there are around 20-30 others in her ‘network’. On being queried, she said she would continue in the trade as long as her body permits, without a second thought.
Since she is new to the trade – she started out 4 months ago – she earns around Rs 2-3000 per month.
“Kabhi kabhi toh khud kharcha karna padta hai,” she says, meaning that sex workers sometimes actually pay the conveyance fare for ‘clients’.
She knows about HIV/AIDS. When asked, she replied in the manner of someone who had memorized the definition of the syndrome: “It is spread through having sex with a person who is an HIV positive. There is a high risk of getting HIV/AIDS if one keeps multiple sexual partners; from HIV positive pregnant woman to her baby in the womb, and through use of drugs and unsterilized syringes.”
Another woman, aged 23, who also runs a small clothes business besides providing sex clients, claimed that she tested HIV negative twice.
She has chosen this trade to supplement her income and assist her family. She has to look after her parents, younger brothers and a sister. No one except some of her friends knows about her ‘work’. In fact, her parents are still in the darkness about their daughter’s other business.
She, too, has a network of 10-20 others. “We sometime party together,” she said.
Surprisingly, she revealed that she joined the profession when she studying in Class VI. Presently, she earns a handsome amount every month, ranging from Rs 10-15000 per month.
She revealed that she also travels to different parts of the North East for her purposes. Her clients are mostly mature men from well-to-do families. Some are young, some students. All in all, her clients’ ages range from 19-40 plus years. Apparently, many clients come to them and share stories of despair and misery.
The surprise that she presented was that sometimes these sex workers offer their services ‘on credit,’ if the clients are helpful and friendly.
The clients come through pimps, but sometimes through friends. While the pimps obviously take their ‘cut’, the friends sometimes do not, asking for a good treat instead.
Most of the sex workers know about sexually transmitted diseases and promote the use of condoms among their clients, the duo said. Some of them are demanding and dominating and many do not like to wear condom, they said.
On the possibility of a sex worker becoming romantically involved with a client, the general consensus appears to be in the negative.
The second woman said she was deceived many times in love. “I do not believe in love. Even if someone comes for marriage, I will never hide my past to him. He will marry me if he loves me. If not, no problem.”
Claiming that many of their clients are from the police department, the duo called it a question of morality when policemen raid hotel to arrest sex workers.
A woman who earlier used to work as a pimp informed that though she was never involved in any sex work she provided girls for clients.
“I was paid good money for arranging sex workers for these clients. Sometimes on a 50-50 ratio, depending on the looks and smartness of the girls,” she informed.
The former pimp sometimes suffers from pangs of guilt. She said it was the want of money that forced her into becoming a pimp; she worries what would happen if the society came to know about her past.
The two sex workers applauded the TDMCS. The NGO sometimes provides honorarium financial assistance to those sex workers who have now become its volunteers. In return the sex workers help the NGO to track other sex workers.
Dev said these women should be brought under the observation of the NGO, and that people should not discriminate against them.
Though these women do not want to come out of their closets, the constant fear in their minds would turn into reality if by any chance they happen to encounter their own relatives or friends while ‘at work’.
For now, they live in the twilight zone, neither in the light nor in darkness, as they walk the road of uncertainty to an unsure future.
N:B:-This Article was Published in Arunachal Front on June 26, 2009.